it hit me like a ton of bricks..

It hit me like a ton of bricks! i could not believe i was finally graduating! after all the years of spending time with my high school friends, i knew that it was coming to an end. Some friends i would still see but others will be going off to college somewhere out of town. It sucked saying the last goodbyes.

A lot of good thoughts was running through my head though as well. Such as i will be going to college myself and i can make new friends and experience new things. A college education to me means that it is a "new beginning of the rest of my life", basically saying that if i succeed in college, i will succeed in what i do as an adult. I knew that college was going to be a little harder than high school so i told myself i must prepare more than i did in high school. Although i am a little behind in my classes right now i am working hard to pick up the pace, and pass all my classes, so i can graduate college and keep heading down the right path of success.

I cant believe i was ever intimidated by...

i cant believe i was ever intimidated by my older brother. Growing up as kids i feared that if i used any of his stuff that he would "beat me up", so i never did. The thing is, i never asked him if i could play with his stuff so i never knew if he would say yes or no. Now looking back on it i cant believe that i was like that. Now my brother and i are very close. We share everything together just fine, and get along very well. he is actually my role model as i am looking forward to following in his footsteps. He is now a mechanical engineer, as i hope to be someday as well.

im writing this blog, but i should be....

I'm writing this blog, but i should be sounded asleep. The past few weeks have been really tough for me. I have been trying to get caught up in every class because of the financial aid issue earlier in the year and the Tri-County computer error that purged me out of all my classes. I have stayed up almost every night trying to get caught up and still have not reached that goal yet. I feel as if i am a walking zombie right now. Since today is Friday, i feel that it is time to sleep and take a break. Instead i am still at it, trying my best to get back on track.

No sleep has also effected my grades, for example i had a trigonometry test today and i have not had any rest in a long time and i felt like i could not concentrate during the test. I believe will turn out better in the long run once i get all this done. I also believe that my grades will start increasing after i finally get some rest.